AncienT Vampire+EviL HistorY

他开始变了，我的心开始淡了。。

2010-03-24T10:17:00.000+08:00

我深爱的他开始变了，变得没那么好了，没以前那么疼爱我了。。。

而我的心也慢慢的淡了。。。也许是我对他的期望太高。。。

当一个人对你太好，你就少了戒心，你会对他的期望很高。。。

当他对你不好时，这才是致命的一击！就如从天堂坠落到地狱，而你不会不知所措。。。

难道我真的脱离不了“爱情月份的诅咒吗”？我们都快一个月了，事情就慢慢出现了，而且是不可避免那种！

可能是我想太多，可是每一段感情都是这样。。。我闷了。。。甚至很怕展开新的恋情，大家都做我的朋友算了，至少到最后我们还是朋友。。。

我还笨到向神说，我希望他是我的最后一个，也是永远的。。。怎知过了几天他就告诉我说他以后会结！

看来神不赞同，而我的心就这样被插了第2刀。。。就好像致命一击，从天堂坠落到地狱。。。

当时的我，脑海一片空白，也没眼泪了，整个人stun着了。。。我不知道这是神给我们的考验还是什么东东。。。

其实我可以变得很花心，可是我不忍心也不舍得看到他在那里受苦。。。

其实我看到他这样，我的心更痛，就如10把刀插入我的心似的。。。

所以我会告诉每个人说名“树有主了，我只需要朋友，我也不会变心，因为没人能比得上他对我的好”！

虽然一开始聊天就说这些很伤人，可是我还是要保持我的名誉和珍惜他，也不想别人胡思乱想。。。

可是当他得到了我之后，就没开始那么疼爱我了。。。

也许人就是这样，还没得到手就不放过任何机会，当得到了就不用那么吃力去挽留他。。。

也许我真的很刁蛮，不过我也有在控制自己不可以随便对他发脾气。。。

可是有点不成功。。。不过我还很努力的改变，因为我知道他很辛苦，每天都受我的气。。。

到尾声了，我要说的是 “对不起，我爱你。。。希望神可以实现我的祷告。。。”

我很讨厌你，太上皇！

2010-01-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

太上皇，你很过分！我越来越忍受不了你！

从今以后，你问我10句，我只回半句，另外半句你自己想！

刚进门，我看都不看你一眼！因为我真的火了！

人家已经计划好怎样帮我过生日，就因为你不给就害到我不能庆祝了！

如果明年还是不给我在这样庆祝，那我永远都不用庆祝生日了！

难得我第一次庆祝生日，这样都不准奏！我恨死你！！！

当朋友说本来已经计划好了，不过现在不能了，要等到明年，我不能保证明年还会在一起。。。虽
然我很渴望长长久久。。。

我还笨笨的回答说那就下几个星期才这样做，朋友回答我说那时没有纪念价值了，因为不再是我的生日。。。

我听了还真有点心疼。。。心很伤。。。还到我的朋友那么累。。。

为什么。。。爱情。。。

2010-01-30T11:06:00.001+08:00

神，为什么要这样来折磨人类。。。

我们做错了什么？为什么要我们活得那么苦？

尤其是爱情。。。可以把你捧到天堂( 比任何开心 )，也可以把你打入180层地狱( 被折磨得很惨 )。。。

爱人的一句话可以让你生，让你死。。。

为什么我们喜欢的人就是不喜欢我们，我们不喜欢的爱到我们那么疯狂。。。

很过分！！！人类不是用来玩的。。。我们祖先( Adam & Eve )犯下的错为什么要让我们这些后代来承担！

忍受不了了。。。很想为世界的每一个人反抗，可是我没能力。。。因为我们只是神的创造品。。。

有些人爱另一半就只是那么一点点，对他很冷淡，可是对别人就很热情。。。

是人想到自己的爱人这样就会很伤心。。。

为什么当令一个人的出现会把我们的距离分的那么远。。。那种信任也少了。。。

有时不要知道一个人的东西或了解一个人太多，会有顾虑，会想很多不好的东西。。。

太过于了解，就会失去对他的热情，很想去尝试新的东西。。。

可是这样值得吗？这么用心的维持着这段感情就为了一时的刺激而把这段感情结束了。。。

到最后就会后悔所做的一切，那时要挽回已经太迟了。。。

刺激只是短暂的，爱情是两个人用心，用蛮长的时间培养出来的。。。

刚想到很多点子，现在忘了。。。记性越来越差。。。等 Part 2... 哈哈。。

选择一个人的权利。。。

2010-01-30T11:01:00.002+08:00

难道我真的没有选择一个人的权利吗？全都要听你们的？

每次都听到你们说这个不好，那个不好，难道你最好吗？

这世界上没有十全十美的人，每个人都有着不同和独特的优点和缺点。。。

这样才能配合彼此。。。互互相生。。。从不同的角度看一样东西，你会领悟到不同的东西。。。

别只用普通的眼光去看一个人。。。

有些更死，当我拒绝或告诉他我有爱人了，直接删除我或人间蒸发。。。这种人我不稀罕！

有些写我没眼看你了，就把我删除了！如果不是我朋友叫我查我还不知道被人删除了！

想到都火，没做错事就被人定罪。。。

难道有爱人的人就不可以交朋友吗？

你必须知道，当越过了爱情的界线，分手的时候，想要做回朋友是很难的。。。做回朋友是有的，不过成功的列子有多少。。。

有些还以炫耀的成分说我很多人要，很多人追。。。这种人我最看不起，最让我反胃，直接软掉！

你很多人追又怎样，我也要像他们这样追着你吗？门都没！想都别想！

我从来不追人，也许你会认为我在追你，其实从另一方面看我并没有，只是给反应和暗示或只是友善的对待人不想伤害你( 友善 = 没有爱意，没想过要去爱哪个人，不过很多人误会我喜欢他，其实我当他们是我的好朋友 )。。。

如果不给反应，你会继续吗？很多人都会放弃。。。其实谁追谁并不重要，重要的是，两个相爱的人在一起了。。。

我不喜欢跟人竞争一样东西，你越多人要，我越不要，而且会像高尔夫球那样抛到远远的。。。

所以不要为了气我而说，“我很多人要，你不要就算了”，那时我就真的算了，而且再也不会喜欢你了。。。

我开始在爱情里变得很幼稚，会做小动作了。。。无聊的我。。。不想以前有点成熟的成分，理都不理。。。haiz... 我便得很烦人了。。。怎么办。。。

好吧，决定了。。。变回以前的我。。。可是又担心他会说我不爱他了，不理他了。。。

其实我是理，就是说不出口，不想烦人。。。被人说烦一次，我永远都不会找他聊天了，除非他来找我。。。

香水！

2010-01-30T10:57:00.000+08:00

香水永远都是吸血恶魔的头号杀手。。。

只要有香水，我都会陶醉在里面。。。当然那香水是我喜欢的味道。。。

最讨厌 DKNY 的苹果玻璃瓶。。。不喜欢水果的香水。。。嗅起来好像拿来吃的。。。

很反胃。。。现在最喜欢 Ferragamo By F (Black), 永远是第一。。。超香。。。

不过，也很喜欢皇后送的 Versace - versus blue jeans。。。

可是嗅了会想起他，然后就色起来。。。哈哈。。。

现在我的房间还有那个味道。。。3天了还在。。。

皇后用的 CK 刚开始不喜欢，嗅久了觉得不错叻！

我的 ex 用 Mont Blanc 的 skywalker, 当时真的被吸引着了。。。然后就爱上了。。。

当然是人和香水。。。别想到我是物恋狂。。。就是喜欢香水。。。

爱人面前的我。。。

2010-01-10T02:12:00.001+08:00

原来我在他的面前是那么的脆弱，无能，没用，弱小，依赖。。。

当被他讲了几句，我稀有的眼泪竟然流了出来！真是丢人现眼！

以前，要我流泪真的很难！就好像蓝色的月亮。。。我给人的印象就是开朗，坚强，冷酷无情，没有烦恼。。。

我就是败在他手里。。。什么不好的都会变成烦恼。。。

我虽然看起来很冷血，冷酷无情，不理不睬；其实我很想去找你，可是就是怕烦到你，我只好每天都默默地等，也不敢埋怨你怎么不找我。。。

我虽然看起来很高傲，口硬，不介意；其实我很耿耿于怀，很在意。。。我总是口是心非，像这样可是又担心你不喜欢。。。

我虽然看起来还像花花公子；其实我不是，我不会做背叛你的事情，因为我的心还在你那里，谁也拿不走，我也知道会有报应。。。

当朋友拨电话或传简讯给我时，我会担心，害怕 ( 即使我没有做错事或背叛你 )因为我担心你会误会，你都知道我是一个很喜欢开玩笑的人。。。我只当他们是我的好朋友，但是就是怕你认为我们有路，暧昧。。。我知道被误会的滋味很难受。。。

收到你的礼物，我真的很开心，很感动，很想抱着你说谢谢，我爱你。。。可是你就是摆那个黑面给我看，很凶那种。。。我就不敢了。。。

其实我不喜欢凶凶的你，我会怕。。。我比较喜欢开开心心的跟你过每一天。。。当我不说话，就表示我不想吵架。。。

有时，我不知道怎么表达自己，想说可是不知道怎么说。。。

所以我只好通过这里( 我的内心世界 )来说声谢谢，我爱你。。。希望你能看到。。。

在此我也想说对不起，我犯了很多错误。。。真的很对不起。。。

坏蛋的我。。。

2010-01-06T18:11:00.001+08:00

突然想起之前我是那么的坏蛋。。。

每天都给他新的名字，如爱妃，妃子，杨贵妃，信妃娘娘，姐姐，哥哥，还有忘记了。。。

从戏院出来，看完了 Twilight: New Moon Saga, 我就变了吸血鬼在大庭广众之下咬他的颈项。。。

在床上 ( 别想歪 )，我扮吸血鬼，他扮僵尸( 我最怕的怪物 )。。。扮着我咬他，可是每次都被他反驳咬回我。。。

我就会乱叫，因为真的很可怕，怕他突然真的变成僵尸。。。看太多戏了。。。哈哈。。。

想起真的很幼稚，很好笑，可是很好玩。。。

我还在大庭广众下吻了他，有戏院，look out point... 印象中只有这两个地方。。。

在 The Curve 搂着他的腰，然后手就慢慢升到他的胸就玩起他的奶。。。哈哈。。。

好傻的我。。。竟然有这种胆量去玩。。。以后不知道谁还可以被我这样玩了。。。

这些都是我第一次这样做，因为以前都没人敢这样跟我玩。。。

我们还在那边一直自己拍二人照，他说很多人看着我们笑。。。哈哈。。。

18SX！！! 18岁以下不可以看了！：

在车上，要下车前我会弄到他有生理反应，然后就下车。。。哈哈。。。我觉得我好坏。。。

好像还有很多东西都忘了，想不起来了。。。就这些。。。

好想有个守护天使。。。

2010-01-06T02:25:00.000+08:00

好想有个守护天使永远都守护在我的身边。。。

从出生到现在我都是被人欺负，被压在下面的 (别想歪 )。。。

好想有个守护天使保护我这个“弱小”的男生，男孩或男人 (由你们来决定)。。。

帮助我的每一天，好让我好好的过日子，，，至少伤心时有他陪着。。。

每一天都跟着我，让每个人看到以便没胆量来欺负我。。。听起来好幼稚。。哈哈

其实，我每天都在幻想着这些。。。有个翅膀多好，自由自在的飞翔，无忧无虑。。。

有时我觉得这世界很黑暗 (根本就是)，很可怕。。。

好想解脱这个恐怖的世界。。。好想唱阿妹的解脱。。。

我知道我的歌声很难听，可是你没有权利阻止我唱歌因为这纯粹只是娱乐。。。

我不是在献给每个人听。。。

好了，白日梦发完了，是时候醒来了。。。幻想世界都是那么完美。。。

你不知道的 Elwyn!!!

2010-01-05T18:22:00.000+08:00

我是那种对不认识的人很冷酷和害羞，当认识了我会很疯癫的玩起来。。。所以人人都说我很高傲，其实我并没有！

我不喜欢看到人伤心。。。我很喜欢开玩笑，如果你不喜欢就要告诉我而不是骂我！

我很爱计划可是没一个可以实现。。。我很爱玩，因为我很怕闷。。。闷了就会失去感觉。。。

我有时候很安静，有时候很多话说，不过比较希望别人很多话题因为我不会找话题，我是个很闷的人！

我每天都幻想着有天使的翅膀，我喜爱自由，不喜欢被绑着的感觉。。。

我不会去爱一个不够爱我的人，当我知道他不够爱我时，我会默默地离开，惹他生气，好让他没那么伤心！

我不喜欢去烦人，都在等人来找我。。。虽然不会说出口，可是心里一直很想着他们。。。

我不可以忍受人家对我发脾气或大声对我说话，我的火也会因此冒了起来。。。

我很讨厌吵架，因为我有九级火！脾气很坏！

和人打冷战时，我死也不会认输，我理都不理，可是心里就是想着那个人来找我。。。即使很爱他！

我很快就可以忘记一个人，尤其是很少聊天的朋友。。。记忆力很差！

我是口是心非的人，口说不要其实很想要，因为不想让你误会，难受，辛苦，而我害羞！

老实说，我看起来很凶，很ｌａｎｃｉ，其实我很胆小，很害羞，即使喜欢那个人我也不会主动去找他。。。我很怕鬼和僵尸(zombie the most!)。。。

即使我很爱一个人，我可能会说：我希望我们是朋友因为在我的世界，友情是永恒，爱情是短暂的！

我不想分手过后永远的失去他。。。我是个很听爱人话的人，不过也有限制。。。

让我软掉的人 ( TMO = Turn Me Off )：

1. 对我高傲的人，就算我很爱他，也可以把他贬进地狱，因为我最讨厌这种人。。。

2. 认为自己很好看，很有面子，还有那种知道我喜欢他就对我不理不睬的人。。。直接软掉！！！

3. 对我不理不睬的人！

4. 别爱现(show off), it turn me off within 0.00001 second!

5. 用样貌和身材来决定要不要跟一个人做朋友的人!

Wait for next round... Can't think too much of myself...

我。。。真的很笨！

2010-01-04T16:17:00.002+08:00

对不起，一时想不开。。。我给你们太多烦恼和忧虑了。。。

我20岁了，是大人了，要会想了，不应该为了些事而变成这样。。。

人不为己，天诛地灭。。。今年不是个好年。。。

我又被征服了，就那么几句话就可以把我愚蠢的念头给打消掉。。。我的皇后可能就是我的克星吧。。

我做人太没原则了，人家说什么我就听什么。。。好听的叫乖，不好听就叫笨！

没想到我也有这么笨的一天。。。笨到要做那种事。。。

很多人都说我笨，为什么为了一个人而这样，其实我也不知道，就很自然会这样。。。

我知道有不少人要得到我，也暗示过我，我不是那么笨的。。。

我并不是在炫耀还是什么，就不知道告诉谁，就把我想讲的东西都写在这里，也懒惰重复。。。

看来你们要失望了，因为我的心离不开我的皇后。。。我不想一时的冲动而放弃我现在拥有的，我开始懂得珍惜一切了。。。

对我来说，爱情是短暂的，而友情是永恒的。。。有时我很想有疼我的朋友就够了。。

男女朋友只是一个名词，名分。。。心在就是爱着彼此。。。还有爱情不能强迫！

我开始相信神的预言了，神说：不要相信朋友那么多，不要出风头，会有血光之灾。。。

全都灵了，我还在等着所谓的“血光之灾”，我父母说会有血的。。。

今天，我终于感受到整天没睡觉的滋味。。。真的 100% 很辛苦。。。

从5.45am 到 6.20am，才睡那么半个小时。。。起来的时候竟然是晕晕的，，很Blur，很想呕，可能是整晚都没吃到东西。。。

还要逞强的载我妹妹去上学，当光照到我眼睛时，真的很晕很晕，差点撞倒东西或车好几次。。。

我觉得以前的我开始回来了，有点冷血了。。。没想那么多了，就顺其自然。。。

潇洒的ELWYN 回来了！

离开这世界。。。

2010-01-04T16:17:00.001+08:00

我想是时候离开这世界了。。。我活得好辛苦，好辛苦。。。我想太多的东西了。。。

我承受不了这一切的压力。。。

我想摆脱这一切，我犯了弥天大罪！永远都不能挽回。。。

结束了生命也许不是一个坏选择。。。至少我摆脱了痛苦。。。

我不想给人那么多压力，那么多烦恼。。。我知道我很烦，可是没办法。。。

我爱的人永远不会原谅我，就趁这个机会对他说声对不起，我错了。。。

我会尝试，如果阎羅王不收下我，我还能出现在你们的面前。。。

再见了各位。。。谢谢你们的关心。。。我走了。。。再见。。。

女皇：我不会再烦你了，我给你太多的烦恼。。。好好活下去吧。。。再见了。。。继续你的生活不要理人家的谣言。。。

对女皇说的话~

2010-01-02T18:53:00.001+08:00

从今以后，朕再也不会去找你，等你，烦你。。。因为朕知道朕变了。。。变得会去爱一个人。。。

以前的朕，不会去爱，只会享受被爱，不理不睬，不闻不问，逍遥自在，冷漠无情。。。

不过就在这时候，朕知道了很多人家知道可是只有朕不知道的东西。。。

原来你是那么的出名，那么多坏的回应，朕还是第一次被人打败了一半！

朕知道朕开始变得烦人，无理取闹，令人讨厌。。。也许是朕不够帅，没那种魅力绑着你的心。。。

朕也认了。。。样子不能永恒，老了也会变丑。。。朕知道现在是朕的现世报，因为朕以前很坏！

朕会做出明智的选择。。。要不要继续爱你是朕的选择，你怎样也改变不了朕的决定。。。

朕不会伤心，因为朕不是没人要的类型，老实说已经有很多人要朕休了你以后就通知他们。。。

朕不是在炫耀，只是老实了点！也不想你会难过，可是朕知道你不会，朕在你心里的地位并不高。。。

朕也没答应他们，就是很敷衍的回答。。。因为朕的心还在你那儿，是时候拿回来了。。。

朕难免会有点难过，因为当懂得爱时候被人耍，而不是因为你。。。不过朕很快就会忘记了。。。

你都知道朕的记忆力是那么的差。。。既然成不了爱人，那就成为朋友好了。。。

反正多一些朋友也没害( 不是hai ), 而且朕的ex都很少跟朕做回朋友，可能伤的他们太深！

还有朕不是代替品，如果让朕知道，你就人偷落地！

Find me if you feel to, I will entertain...

Relationship = Curse?

2010-01-02T14:13:00.001+08:00

Why my relationship will be = to curse to me and others?

Whenever I tell someone I'm in a relationship, quite number of friend will sad and don't even want to be my friend anymore... Just totally disappear in a glimpse ...

Well, I have used to it...

But recently, I becoming a "product" that let people to make reservation if I break up without my permission...

I think there are "5 of them or more" reserved me at the moment... What for to do so?

What can I reply as u ask "Elwyn, once u broke up please call me up, I will take care of you"

I kinda sad to hear so actually, what I can reply is "erm... ok"

But for sure i won't do so... Bcz My heart is belongs to my Queen...

Why I can't just get a wish from u all instead of cursing me to break up for your own benefit...

Additional, all my relationship definitely have something bad happen to pull our faith and love apart at the "1st month or every month"...

It is proven from all my relationship I had pass through...

Of course, this 1 is not exception... The problem are revealing and I starting to losing faith and feeling towards my Queen gradually...

God, I just wish to have long term relationship rather than just 1 month or 2 months...

And of course give someone that are good, not bitch (slut), loyalty as I do, let me feel secure, gentle and bla bla bla...

Rescind the "Month of Doom" in all my relationship... I want years but not months...

New Year New Life~

2010-01-01T12:18:00.000+08:00

Wooow!!!! Happy New Year to everyone on 2010!!!

2 010 = 2 xxx... haha...

Just celebrate new year eve with my buddy over Sunway Pyramid... But the fireworks not impressive at all!

Kinda disappointed this year... Not that excited as what I expect...

Once 1/1/2010 12am, all the beverage increase by 10cent... Zha dao!

Keep go and drink and drink within 6hours... about 3 restaurant over the night...

Wish everything will be good in this year... Bcz last year really really bad... Whatever I buy comes with problems...

Reborn Like a Phoenix!

Back to the initial point!

2009-12-31T14:20:00.000+08:00

What comes around, goes around... After walk through a path, only I realize I still back to the starting point... It will never end and end...

What I thought is wrong actually is right, but what I thought is right is wrong!

I thought I have make a mistake but not at all... It even worse than what I have doubting...

I'm enough for it! Stop fooling ME!

想了那么多原来还是回到原点。。。反而变本加厉！

我受够了！不要跟我玩了！我开始闷了！这不好受，虽然我不会很在意。。。

怎么说我还是有点感情的生物！我不告诉你那么多因为我要给你安全感，我也会控制，不像你。。。

只会给我那么多的威胁。。。那么多人都知道你的东西，可是我永远都蒙在鼓里，完全不知道！

我给你太多自由了。。。我不是没人要的东西。。。

就算没了我也不会为了你而伤心，你没有那种资格！

Sorry, My Queen~

2009-12-31T00:39:00.001+08:00

To My Queen only: My Beloved Queen, I very sorry for Misunderstand you... I apologize here...

I feel very very regret about that after Queen has called me from Taiwan and told ME queen is busy and bought a perfume for ME.... sob sob =(

So sad, I think too much... I shouldn't think that way...

After Queen called ME and my mood change immediately... Become very happy but with sad for misunderstanding...

我的皇后，对不起。。。朕想你道歉。。。是朕想太多了。。。朕感到非常的内疚当知道错怪了你。。。

我的心，开始痛了。。。很难过。。。

当朕接到你的电话，朕的心情简直是360度大转变，立刻便好了。。。朕xxxx你

Why am I so stupid?!!!

2009-12-30T15:53:00.000+08:00

Why am I so stupid?!!! Where is the previous me? How could I upset cause of these little love matter...

MY GOD! I'm getting weak in Life... I might cause irritation to others now! Damn!

为什么我那么笨？！！！竟然为了这些微不足道的爱情烦恼而烦恼与担心。。。

以前那 ”冷酷无情，不理不睬，自由自在“ 的我去了哪里？！！

我越来越弱了，不会管理爱情了，越来越糊涂了！

如果是以前的我，我不当这是一回事。。。我不想让人觉得我很烦！我永远都是那么”无情“的。。。

难道我的心开始慢慢的茂着芽？不行，我要射”止长剂“了。。。哈哈。。。

好想回到以前那种很多很多人关心与疼爱的时候。。。可能我老了，不好看了，人家也不要我了。。。

人生就是如此，变幻无穷。。。算了，我不理了。。。我开始变回吸血恶魔了(没心的家伙)。。。

My Queen

2009-12-30T15:52:00.001+08:00

Once I upload the photo between King and Queen, lots of people message me in Facebook and in mobile phone ask whether I am with this people...

My Queen is damn High Profile... Kinda worry and might get a lots of information no matter good or bad on Queen...

Today When I look at my Queen profile, damn... Queen told me will give me a message to inform me once Queen reach Taiwan...

What a sad case, Queen did post status over Facebook but didn't even give ME a message over through any communication... My Heart is dying gradually... Losing faith on Queen...

我的心开始慢慢的死了。。。希望你能做点东西。。。不然。。。后果没人敢担保，，，

死了就是死了。。。没有挽回的机会。。。

Reasons Chinese shouldn't have English Names‏!

2009-11-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan (anyone)?

Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.

Caller : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan (anyone)!

Operator : You are talking to someone! Who is this?

Caller : I'm Sam Wan (Someone). And I need to talk to Annie Wan (anyone)! It's urgent.

Operator : I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?

Caller : Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan (anyone) that our brother Noel Wan (no one)has involved in an accident. Noel Wan (no one)got injured and now Noel Wan (no one) is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.

Operator : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!

Caller : You are so rude! Who are you?

Operator : I'm Saw Lee (Sorry).

Caller : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!!

======================================================

Why Chinese shouldn't have Christian names:

Anne Chang => Dirty (Mandarin)

Anne Chin => Keep Quiet (Mandarin)

Faye Chen => Dusty (Mandarin)

Carl Cheng => Buttock (Hokkien)

Monica Cheng => Touching your buttocks (Hokkien)

Lucy Leow => You are dead (Hokkien)

Jane Tan => Frying eggs (Mandarin)

Suzie Leow => Lose till death (Hokkien)

Henry Mah => Hate your mum (Mandarin)

Corrine Tai => Poor fellow (Hokkien)

Paul Chan => Bankrupt (Mandarin)

Nelson Tan => Bird laying eggs (Mandarin)

Leslie Tong => Rubbish Bin (Mandarin)

Carmen Teng => Leg hair long (Hokkien)

Connie Mah => Call your mother (Cantonese)

Danny See => Squeeze you to death (Hokkien)

Rosie Teng => Screws and nails (Hokkien)

Pete Tsai => Nose droppings (Hokkien)

Macy Koh => Never die before (Cantonese)

對老婆的愛

2009-10-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

燭光晚餐。桌兩邊，坐了男人和女人。

“我喜歡你。”女人一邊擺弄著手裡的酒杯，一邊淡淡地說著。

“我有老婆。”男人摸著自己手上的戒指。

“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感覺。你，喜歡我嗎？”

男人抬起頭，打量著對面的女人。

24歲，年輕，有朝氣，相當不錯的年紀。

白皙的皮膚，充滿活力的身體，一雙明亮的，會說話的眼睛。

真是不錯的女孩啊，可惜。

“如果你也喜歡我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人終於等不下去，追加了一句。

“我愛我妻子。”男人堅定地回答。

“你愛她？愛她什麼？現在的她，應該已經年老色衰，見不得人了吧。否則，公司的晚宴，

怎麼從來不見你帶她來……”

女人還想繼續，可接觸到男人冷冷的目光後，打消了念頭。

靜……

“你喜歡我什麼？”男人開口了。

“成熟，穩重，動作舉止很有男人味，懂得關心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前見過的人不同，你很特別。

“你知道三年前的我什麼樣子？”男人點了顆煙。

“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐過牢。”

“三年前，我就是你現在眼裡的那些普通男人。”男人沒理會女人，繼續說。

“普通大學畢業，工作不順心，整天喝酒，發脾氣。對女孩子愛理不理，還因為去夜總會找小姐，被police抓過。”

“那怎麼……”女人有了興趣，想知道是什麼讓男人轉變的。

“因為她？”

“嗯。”

“ 她那個人，好像總能看到事情的內在。教我很多東西，讓我別太計較得失，別太在乎眼前的事，盡量待人和善。那時的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。那時真的很奇怪，倔脾氣的我，偏偏最聽她的話。按照她說的，接受現實，我知道自己沒用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上稍微有了起色，我們結婚了。”

男人彈了彈煙灰，繼續說著。

“那時，真是苦日子。兩個人，一張床，家裡的家具也少得可憐。知道嗎？結婚一年後，我才給她買了第一枚鑽戒，存了大半年的錢呢。當然，是背著她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不讓的。”

“那陣子，因為煙酒弄得自己身體不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前還要給我熬湯喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”

男人沉醉於回憶裡，忘記了時間，只是不停地講述著往事。

而女人，也絲毫沒有打斷的意思，靜靜地聽著。

等男人注意到時間，已經晚上10點了。

“啊，對不起，沒注意時間，已經這麼晚了。”男人抱歉地笑了笑。

“現在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不會，做對不起她的事。”

“啊，知道了。輸給這樣子的人，心服口服了！”女人無奈地搖了搖頭。“不過我到了她的年紀，會更棒的。”

“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是嗎？”

“很晚了，家裡的湯要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。

“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人擺了擺手。“回去吧，別讓她等急了。”

男人會心地笑了笑，轉身要走。

“她漂亮嘛？”

“……嗯，很美。”

男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，對著蠟燭，發呆。

男人回到家，推開門，徑直走進臥室，打開了台燈。

沿著床邊，他坐了下來。

“老婆，已經第四個了。干嘛讓我變得這麼好，好多人喜歡我呀。搞不好，我會變心呀。干嗎把我變得這麼好，自己卻先走了？我，我一個人，好孤單呀……”

男人哽咽地說著，終於泣不成聲。

眼淚，一滴滴從男人的臉頰流下，打在手心裡的相框上。昏暗的燈光中，舊照片裡彌漫著的是已逝女子淡淡的溫柔。

經典的男女真心話

2009-10-27T22:07:00.001+08:00

1. 当你收到“你干嘛呢？”实际上是想说“我想你了”。
2. 当你收到“呵呵”，多是没笑或者傻笑。
3. 但如果是“哈哈”或者“嘿嘿”，这时你打过去一定是在笑。
4. 说你“傻瓜”或者“笨蛋”其实是关心你，担心你，希望你照顾好自己。
5. 如果是问句结束，其实是希望能和你多聊一会儿。
6. “哦”多半是在敷衍。
7. 但如果是“知道啦”，“收到”，“遵命”之类的则表示比较在意。
8. 有时劝你忙自己的，其实他是口是心非。
9. 把他的傻事，丢面的或失落的事告诉你，是希望你安慰他，开导他，甚至骂骂他。
10. 主动发给你，说明你在他心目中有一定的分量，一般人不喜欢和不在意的人罗嗦。
11. 如果给你起外号，是希望你可以记住他多一点。
12. “我刚到”，“我已经到家咯”说明进屋第一个想到的是你。
13. “你到家了就告诉我一声”，“你到家了没啊？”意思是我要你一定平安了，我不许你有事。
14. 有时不会那么巧就发错给你，可能是他想发给你又实在又没东西发，虽然这样很愚蠢。
15. 收到“转发2人会幸福哦”，是他觉得这条短信很有意思，但是不忍心让你转发给10人，就偷偷把10改成了2。
16. 凡是那种“不转发就会不幸”咒语性质的，他不是没有收到过，但是绝不会转发给你.
17. 有一阵你没有收到过他的短信，但不表示他草稿箱里没有。
18. 如果可能，他晚上不关机就是因为你。

Eternal Universe and Mortal Planet

2009-10-21T18:22:00.002+08:00

This scene always appear in my mind, usually before into deep sleep...

Did you guys ever imagine this scene before?

The meaning of this title is "The Universe might be there permanently but planet keep dying and reborn"...

Let's imagine, our Earth will disappear 1 day and we all will vanish but where do we go afterward?
What we will be? How it will be? What will be replace us? Is there other human existing?

There is tons of indissoluble questions for us to find out...

After 100 years of disappear of human, what will this Universe or God create? Will human back to earth again and again continuously?

After 100 thousands years, Universe still exist but how about us? It's a long period to live with and to wait for... What creature will represent human at the moment? Where does our soul go?

When think of it, my heart will chilled with intranquil... Feel like I might disappear 1 day...

With God, maybe we are safe and went to Heaven or Hell but if without God? Where we go?

Human life is short, and we all will leave 1 day without our knowledge...

Thus, I decide to live my remaining life happily and without any regret... Guys, do the same thing... You'll know what am I deliver about now or in future...

Life Happily, forget sadness, do the best you could and No harming people...

Grandpa's Funeral...

2009-10-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

9th Oct 2009 :

* The day Grandpa passed away...
* Rush back to hometown for the funeral...
* Once reach need to kneel down from the gate into the house, the coffin just after the door and my cousin is burning the Hell Money in 2 pots...
* Waiting for the shirt and shoes for funeral progress ( I dunno what to called as)
* Get shock when we (cousins) know after wear the mourning dress cannot take shower, wash hair and sleep on bed for 3 days because this is the 1st time... I don't hope this kind of thing happen around me again...

10th Oct 2009 :

* Fold the "Hell Money"
* Preparing for funeral progress about 5pm, everyone was rushing to take shower... I think I taken 2 times or 3 times of bathe before 5pm... Can't stand for sticky body
* Everyone is wearing the mourning dress, Sons and Daughters and grandson (same surname) wear Black, Other grandson (different surname) wear Blue and Grand grandson wear Green... For Sons, Daughters & eldest Grandson wear linen cope and hat while grandson wear long white cope and hat (looks like ... )...
* The Lama is reciting the scriptures for a long long long hours...
* The Lama is bad!!! They make the crying voice and say something really really touched and whole the family is crying there to mourn grandpa... Luckily that is ending, otherwise I will be very embarrass... Between we have break between the moment (before crying)...

11th Oct 2009 :

* Doing the same thing... Lama reciting scriptures
* Walk round by round and pluck the leaves and branches from the tree prepared that represented the sickness with my grandpa and we pluck off all the sickness on him, most of the adult do cry and me as well... Touched by the crying voices again... Damn embarrassing...
* Using Grandpa "mourning plate" to across the "silver bridge" and "gold bridge"

12th Oct 2009 :

* Almost the same...
* We all have to view grandpa for last time on the coffin and Seal grandpa coffin with hammer...
That time was so noisy and horrific... Because of the hammer sound...
*At evening, the Lama use sand and made 2 long dragons and with coins around the bodies...
That purpose is too find the coins in the sand and represent how much Grandpa grant us, but one 1 my cousin say who get the more coins means the more my grandpa care about the person... Eventually my grandma get more than RM10 by coins only...

13th Oct 2009 :

* Wipe grandpa coffin with "Hell Money" ( with water)...
* All my uncle and auntie was crying but I couldn't cry because it was too hot...
* Send my grandpa to the graveyard by walking (half way only, another half by car)
Everyone was crying because that is the last time grandpa with us...
* Reached graveyard and praying for awhile and throw the sand to grandpa tomb...
* Fold "Hell Money" again...

14th Oct 2009 :

* Fold "Hell money" prepare to burn on 15th Oct, for the 7th day of my grandpa death...
* The Sifu say have to go to graveyard tomorrow by 5am and leave at 7am otherwise very scary... All the adults was so scare... haha... included me...

15th Oct 2009 :

* Wake up around 5am and rushing to graveyard...
* Once reached really horrifying... Because no light at all... But when I look at the sky... OMG... the sky is full with stars... I never been seen the sky with tons of stars...
* Praying there and keep kneel down and rushing to leave the graveyard...
* Sleep back, but so weird I keep feel that many people calling me by different time and I do wake up in dream and turned back but I do feel that I couldn't turn back in real life... I think I am half awake or my soul is coming out... Or... Fool by those thing... scare scare...
* Fold "Hell Money" with my cousin from about 11am to 5pm... Non-stop but we do break for 30minutes for lunch... At night been forced to sleep before 11.30pm because my uncle and auntie say grandpa will come back today since is 7th day...

16th Oct 2009 :

* Go to graveyard around 9am... And make a "NIKE" scar on my hand (burn by joss stick)
OMG, that was very very pain... and have to endure for few hours only can go back...
* Once reached home, quickly apply toothpaste on the scar...
* Others are bullshit, not related to this...

18th Oct 2009 :

* Reached home about 5pm... damn tired... never prepare anything to study the next day...
Didn't online for about 1 weeks and 5days...

Thats all... A ri ga to u ko za i mas

Grandpa... Bye Bye... ;<

2009-10-18T20:06:00.002+08:00

ByE ByE my beloved Grandpa...

It's kinda hurt for us of your leaving...

But it's good for grandpa for get rid from the pain of sickness... Lung Cancer, 4th Stage...

Caused by Smoke! ( Attention for all smokers)

Death might be an good ending... Get rid from every suffer and pain of being human...

It is not easy to being human, there is too many challenge and obstacle in your life...

I'm so proud to be "Foo" family... Because my grandpa funeral is the grand funeral in the whole village...

We are the biggest family over there... around 81 members ( grandpa's brothers and bro's son, grandson excluded)... Only our family...

How huge it is...

Final Soon!!!

2009-08-29T23:16:00.004+08:00

Sorry for disappear so long here because I'm like "a bee saw tons of honey in front of me"...

Means busy... Final exam coming soon... Not the stupid horror movie! I will never pay for it to scare myself by that kind of movie...

Business Law is the subject I worry the most... Due to my terrible memory... Teenage Senile!

I can't even remember 1 shit of thing of this subject...

Quite worry on "account" and "cost accounting"... Anything related to account will ruin my CPGA!

Never like account subject, it SUX! SUX! SUX! From my research, most of the "accounting" lecturer is bore, they are bad on communication, They are account freak but worse in social communication...

Most of them doesn't mean all of them... But some of them really interesting and like to call us as Uncle and Auntie to make themself sound younger...

They never figure out I will call them Grandpa and Grandma instead of Mr or Miss... Haha...

Out of their expectation!

"Above Statement does not included you or everyone! Just majority!"

If you admit then sue me for that! If you really wanna get trouble to yourself, I did study some law! HAHAHAHAHA...

Fucking Lame "SorrY"

2009-08-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

Degree Life damn damn Tough!!!

2009-07-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

After enter degree level, gosh! Never rest!!!

I been busy I think more than 4 weeks I never rest and keep rushing for exams and assignments!!!

This week have to pass up all assignments and next week got 2 more exam...

Haiz... Thought of rest after assignment... But... so sad, still got 2 exam to go on...

After exam still not free, have to prepare for final exam soon...

Gosh!!! Tough human life...

LAW LAW LAW!!! Tough!!!

2009-07-24T16:40:00.002+08:00

Finally done the toughest assignment I ever had... But it is not the toughest...

The toughest is Corporate & Business Law assignment!!!

How to find those weakness in law that set by parliament... They sure figure out most of the weakness and cover it up!

For a student like us, how to figure it out! It's insane! After find out the weakness then have to create some question and interview with a Director!!!

Gosh... Its really can take my life...

But for Financial information for management, is the thickest assignment I ever had... Its about thickness of 2 textbook or 3 times thicker than other group assignment...

Picture below is Financial Information for Management assignment...

Damn Fucking Bad Luck Week!!!

2009-07-18T09:42:00.003+08:00

What the Hack! Damn Damn Damn Bad Luck for the whole week ady!!!

Bad Luck from Monday until now!

Bad Luck list:

Monday > Let car bang once I drive from my place to school, the residential area I stay some more! Pity the Camry.. Whole left part scratch, side mirror broke, fender and door also... Whole left part!!! Study pig, dunno how to reverse! Reverse without pressing break from my left... Plus I rushing for exam some more...

Tuesday > While chewing gum accidentally bite my tongue... Numb for whole weeks ady... Rate 10 pain some more! Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Tongue, I Keep, Keep Bleeding tongue, you cut me open and I... LoL... and get back my fucking N82! warranty for more than 21 days! But he say 10 to 14days done! Breach his promise, can sue!

Wednesday > Fed up with my assignments! Not enough time to do it... since date line is near! Damn Emo at these period!

Thursday > Rushing for assignment at friend house... until 10.30pm only reach home... damn damn tired... But still haven't done... Just half of it!

Friday > Let people aeroplane! But still fine, is my good friend... Forgivable... The unforgivable is my stupid N82 camera can't work anymore! Dunno what HP he gave me! Keep got problem!

Saturday > Because of N82 matter, I can't sleep the whole day... I think i sleep at 4am then wake up at 6am and can't sleep anymore... Black cicle, eye bag and pimples sure will "reveal"...
Damn... I ugly enough ady still want to torture me like this!

Sunday > Dunno yet... Hope God will twist my fate! If God do exist! Frustrate on it ady!

Busy Moment!!!

2009-07-07T20:44:00.002+08:00

Damn stress for these moment... Exam and assignment all crash together!!!

God!! Help Me!!! Why so tough to be a HUMAN... +_+! Forgotten I am not Human...

God!!! Why so tough to be a Creature in this world!!! (creature should be the most suitable vocabulary to apply with)

Last week 1 exam paper ( Corporate & Business Law, the toughest subject I never had learn!)

This week worse, 2 exam paper on Thursday! (Quantitative Technique I & Financial Information for Management) I just study 1 subject, another still blank in my mind!!!

Financial Information for Management gonna pass up at 23rd July!!! Gosh!!! Can't stand it anymore!!!

Monday ... 1st time join these "society"...

How is it feel? Erm... Quite funny lol... Some let me "zha" until nothing to say... I think he is angry LoL...

But I feel quite guilty on that because this is how I behave and how my mouth work...

But I am not lansi le... This is me for the 1st meet because I am not good on expressing myself to others... Sorry dude...

Dota重要还是爱人重要？！！又一个感人的故事！

2009-07-01T23:23:00.001+08:00

Dota比赛中场休息，我忙里偷闲用Msn聊天，这个时间，没有几个人在线，我与其中的一个女孩聊得来，她告诉我她叫诺儿，我说我叫宝宝。这当然不是我的真名，
只不过这样更容易哄女孩子。诺儿给我的感觉很单纯，很可爱，她总是呵呵的傻笑。

我今年22岁，他们都说我有病，放着好好的工作不干，去打什么专业Dota，可我是一个自由散漫惯了的人，父母自有高额退休金，我住着自己的公寓。我热爱Dota，我的理想是亚洲冠军，为了它，我可以放弃一切。
我发现诺儿上网很有规律，而我也喜欢和她胡吹乱侃，别的我不敢说，哄小女生我最在行，尤其是诺儿这种单纯的。我喜欢气她，我总说她傻，她就回给我一个气呼呼的小脸，其实我是想说她傻的可爱。

他们说我是网上的害虫，因为我总是哄骗网上的小姑娘走到现实中来做我的女朋友，新鲜劲过了之后在SAY白白。我不是自夸我长得多么帅，我只是在陈述事实。
我知道时机到了，我对诺儿说：“我们见面吧！”在此之前，我已经在网上叫她一个多月的老婆了。

我坐在KFC六等她，心中暗自祈祷她不要太恐龙。9点整，一个女孩推门而进，她似乎是披着阳光进来的，好耀眼的光芒，那一刻我以为我见到了天使。
我呆呆地看者她在我对面坐下，她梳着两条小辫子，额前的碎发泛着点点的光晕，我闻得到她身上力士香皂和苹果沐浴乳的味道，她未施粉黛的脸上还带着点稚气。

“你是诺儿？”我问她。

她咬着可乐吸管“恩”了一声。

“你成年了吗？”我怎么感觉自己跟诱骗未成年人一样呢？

诺儿听了这话，抬起头盯者我，她的眼睛很大，她特认真地说：“我下个月就过二十岁生日了。”

我不知道这个世界上有没有一见钟情，但我知道我对诺儿的这种感觉是从未有过的，很强烈，也很独特。我不知道这个比喻是否恰当，但我就是觉得她像个粉嫩嫩的
草莓蛋糕，可爱到让人想咬却又舍不得。我就像被施了法术一般，话都有些说不连贯，恍惚之中，看到她朝我微笑，阳光溢出来，溅落，星星点点。

我用尽了一切我所能想得出的方法才算把她“骗”到手，在我牵起她的手的那一刻，我告诉自己，她是我的女人，一个我要保护的女人。

我照例天天打Dota，但没忘了上msn和她聊天，偶尔在泡几个MM，我几乎天天都能收到她的留言：“宝宝你要乖，不要泡MM，天冷要加衣。”

我们战队顺利地进入了前八强，今天是总决赛，午休，我看着干巴巴的饭盒，没有丝毫食。走出赛区，看见大门口蹲坐着一个熟悉的身影，走过去看是诺儿。我拍拍
她，她显然吓了一跳，见是我，舒了一口气，把一个保温饭煲递到我手里。我接过后，她慌忙把手藏到身后，可是我还是看见她手上被烫的水泡。

盒里的饭有点凉了，我问她：“等很久了了？”

“对啊，你手机关掉了。”她嘟着嘴。

“不是告诉你不要来嘛。来，让老公抱抱，累了吧？”我有点心疼。

“我不来你又饿肚子，你一点都不乖，还挑食。”

我吃着盒里的饭，诺儿坐在我身边，紧张地问：“好吃吗？好吃吗？”我大口大口的扒着饭，说实话，挺难吃的，可是我能想象得出这个连袜子都不会洗的女孩是怎
样笨手笨脚地为我做第一顿饭。心中是久违了的感动。我笑着说：“老婆的爱心午餐当然好吃了，你看我不是全部都吃光了吗？”

诺儿听了一脸满足地笑着，站起来就走。

“宝贝你去哪儿啊？”我问她。

“回家呗。“

“别急，我带你去一个地方。”我把她领进赛区，我从没领女孩儿见过朋友，更别说是赛区。队友们见到诺儿都好奇极了，“小嫂子、小嫂子”地叫着，弄得她脸蛋都通红的，队友们都跑来跟我打趣，我心里明白，我是真的爱上她了。

msn上，我问她，“诺儿，你嫁给我好吗？”
她还是呵呵地傻笑，“好啊。以前别人说什么要娶我，我觉得特恐怖，但是我现在突然想嫁人了。” 嗯，诺儿，相信我，等我攒够钱让你做最风光的新娘，我们就结婚。

虽然我们队没有拿到第一，但对于我们这支刚组成不久的队伍来说，全省第二的成绩已经是非常好的了，所以我决定继续努力，非打第一不可。

Dota的比赛越来越多，我也越来越忙，我忘了多久没想过诺儿了，我总是比赛到很晚，偶尔在msn上看到她，她也总是很沉默，我不知道她怎么了。现在想起来，才知道是自己不对，因为我从来没有关心过她是不是开心，过得好不好。

一天，
她说：“你能陪我说会话吗？”

我说：“不行啊，我现在在联系比赛正在等电话。而且马上要开赛了。”

“就一会儿也不行吗？”

“诺儿乖。”

“Dota对你来说真的很重要吗？”

“是。”

“那我呢？难道我就一点不重要吗？”

“也重要。”

“那我和Dota哪个更重要呢？”

“Dota。”我没有骗她。

很久，她的msn头像都没有再晃动。

几天后，我看到她给我的留言：“我不知道能不能等到自己比dota更重要的那一天了，以后你要照顾好自己．．．．．．”我觉得她像是在说傻话，没看完就关了msn。

几个月后，打完dota回到家已经是精疲力竭了，倒在床上一动不想动。这时手机响起来，我不想接，可它却响个没完没了。我一看是诺儿的号，就没好气地接起来说：“不是叫你这几天别打电话给我吗？你不知道我有多累……”

电话那一端传来一阵怒吼：“……你他 [ 粗话自动过滤系统 ] 还算不算是男人啊？”

不是诺儿，我一愣，“你谁呀你？”

“你甭管我是谁，明天诺儿出殡，你要也算个人，就来看她最后一眼。”

诺儿？出殡？什么跟什么呀？我还想再问下，电话戛然挂断。

忽然一股恐怖感占据了我，我拼命的回拨，很久才有人接起来，是个很苍老的声音，“你找……”

“诺儿呢？”

“她……不在了……”声音里明显带着哭腔。

我的脑袋轰的一下，难道，诺儿她真的出事了？

哪天，我看见诺儿被他们抬了出来，她脸上还带着微笑，可天使般的微笑再也泛不出光晕了，诺儿的朋友看我的眼神分明是仇视的，恨不得吃了我。诺儿的妈妈告诉
我，诺儿有血小板减少症，家里人什么都不让她做，生怕她不小心弄破了手指或是什么地方，血流不止。原以为治好了，可后来不知怎的，血小板又突然下降，心脏
功能也开始衰竭。前几天她突然精神很好，我们都明白那意味着什么，她说她想听听你的声音，打电话给你，可是关机，她说你一定在比赛呢。有人说去找你，可诺
儿不让，她说比赛对你很重要，她怕你生气，说着说着自己就哭了，我们也都跟着哭，她说肯定有一天你会明白，她比dota重要，可她等不到了……诺儿妈妈有抹起
眼泪来。

我靠在医院太平间的墙上，想哭没泪。

我好几天没打dota了，呆呆地看着诺儿的msn形象，自从诺儿走了以后，我整个人好像被抽走了力量。身和心都特别疲惫。

我打开诺儿的msn才知道，里面只有我一个人的号。

我注意到她的资料里有一个网址，打开是个心情驿站，有各种各样的故事，其中有篇文章的署名是诺儿。

“不敢想象，我就那么不可救药地爱上了他。我喜欢他的温柔，也喜欢他假装凶巴巴的样子，我想如果有一天他向我求婚，我一定会嫁给他。

我最近很不开心，我喜欢听他说话，可他却连话都不愿意和我说了，因为他很忙，他要打dota。他再也不叫我小傻瓜了，他从没说过爱我，也没送过花给我，可我还是喜欢他。

有一天我告诉他江边涨水了，他说以后陪我看，我很高兴。有一天我看见一只很可爱的小狗，他答应我，我们以后也会有一只，也叫诺儿，我很高兴。他说过几天陪我去看电影，放风筝，我特别开心，虽然这些都还没有实现，我相信总有一天会的。但我恐怕等不了那么久了。
他说dota比我重要，我没生气，因为这是实话，可是我很伤心，所以我偷偷地哭了。我想我还不够坚强，我做的还不够好，医生说我过不到下一个生日了，也就是4月4日，他还不知道我的生日呢！不过这也没关系。

我又虚弱了，刚打了几个字就很累，真的很没用。

我知道他有很多女朋友，这样也好，我走了，他不会伤心，虽然我是那样想嫁给他，我一直盼他送我玫瑰，哪怕只一支，以前有很多人送我，可我没收，因为那代表
爱情，我想我可能等不到他送我的那一天了，所以我偷偷买了一朵送给自己，我想我写什么他永远都看不见了，所以我可以随心所欲地敲打文字，我刚才打电话给
他，但他关机了。那个讨厌的声音一直重复‘对不起，您拨打的电话已关机’。我好想，真的好想再和他说说话，哪怕就一分钟，听听他的声音也好，我们好久都没
见面了，我每天都好想他。真没出息，又哭了，唉，其实我真的好放心不下他，他玩游戏时间长了眼睛会疼，我买了眼药水却没法给他，还有，他挑食……”

文章没有写完，想是她累了，结尾有一个FlasLASH，我点击Play，优雅的声音在空空的房间里回荡。

“静静地陪你走了好远好远/
连眼睛红了都没有发现/
听着你说你现在的改变/看着我依然最在你的笑脸/
这条旧路依然没有改变/以往的每次路过都是晴天/
想起我们有过的从前/泪水就一点点开始蔓延……每当我闭起眼/
我总是看见/
你的诺言全部都会实现/
我亲过你的脸/你已经不在我身边/
我还是祝福你过的好一点/ 断开的情线/我不要做断点/只想杂睡前听见你的蜜语甜言……”

Flash制作得有点粗糙，可我那憋了很久的眼泪还是滴了下来，画面的结尾还有一行行的小字。

“想听你说爱我，一声也好；

想接受你送的玫瑰，一朵也好；

想再多点时间爱你，哪怕只一天；

可是现在，我的手都已经好颤抖，好想再见你一面。”

我一个人做在漆黑的房间里，终于大哭起来，我就那样错过了你，我最爱的女人，还来不及宠你，还来不及实现诺言，还来不及让你做我最美丽的新娘。
该死的dota，我连你最后一面都没见上，我真该死。
是的，我终于明白了你是最重要的，可惜你不能在等我了。

今年清明没下雨，我放弃了dota，做了白领，我一定会要你做我最风光的新娘。

“生日快乐，小傻瓜。”

每日礼拜我都会来这里，我只想和你说说话，纯白饿墓碑宛如你的纯洁。微风像你的发丝轻佛过我的脸，想念我那依然最爱的你的笑脸。

朋友、家人都惊讶于我的改变，我不抽烟了，不打dota了，不上网了，养了一只和你一样可爱的小狗，像当初我们说好的那样，叫它诺儿，我只想再和你说说话，再送你最美的玫瑰。

好感动的一个故事，读了有点想哭。。。

2009-06-19T01:53:00.002+08:00

被愛幸福呢？？還是愛人幸福？？
這個問題.一直都搞不清楚說‧‧‧
而且還一直好奇這個問題的答案到底是什麼‧‧‧
但...看了下面這篇文章‧‧‧
想應該知道答案了‧‧‧

我常常在想，究竟是愛人比較幸福、還是被愛比較幸福呢？
經過了幾年來的試煉，我總算有了答案，不過，卻也付出了這一生中難以彌補的代價。
當時我是學校裏相當知名的夜間部之花，追求我的男生宛如過江之鯽，同學、學長、朋友、甚至工作上的同事，讓我豐富地體驗到被追求的樂趣。
在眾多的追求者當中，有一位個性相當木訥的同學，我知道他是真的很愛我的，默默地為我做了很多的事情，他是真的希望我能夠快快樂樂的。
可是，他並不是我喜歡的對象，所以不論他對我多好，我總是不給他好臉色看，也從不會答應他的邀約。
雖然如此，他卻還是一如往昔，只是一味地照顧我、關心我、保護我，從沒聽他抱怨過什麼，坦白說，對於他的一片真情，我是有點感動了，只因礙於心裏上的障礙，和他在一起時，我總是故意擺出一副冷冷的面孔，我知道這樣做對他很不公平，但我卻不願意遷就我的感覺，因為我知道我不愛他，我只想和我愛的人在一起。
不管我對他的態度多冷淡，他依然很有耐心地對我噓寒問暖，上下班定時接送。
有時我真恨他為什麼要對我這麼好，他為什麼不罵我？不兇我？
那我就可以名正言順地要他離開我，而不會感到良心不安了。
女人一直都是矛盾的，不是嗎？

一方面又很喜歡他寵我，另一方面又不喜歡和他在一起，我知道他對於我對他忽冷忽熱的態度，一定是痛苦萬分的，可是他卻一點怨言也沒有。
有時我真的很懷疑他到底是不是男人？
怎麼連點骨氣也沒有。
有一次，他到公司來接我下班，當時我因為公事一肚子怨氣，正好無處發洩，所以便對他生悶氣，他小心翼翼地詢問我究竟他做錯了什麼，我一時口沒遮攔，便隨口告訴他，我看不起騎機車接送我上下班的人（他都是騎機車載我的），等有輛車子來接送我時再來找我吧！否則就別再來煩我！
他的家境不好，我知道對他而言是不可能的，我只是要他別再我身旁煩我罷了。
也許是真的傷了他的心吧，一路上他始終默默不語，晚上放學後也任由別人約我去夜遊，我想，也許這次他真的生氣了，也好！我也省得麻煩！
於是我正眼也不瞧他一瞧，就和別的男生走了。
從那次以後，他再也沒有騎車接送我了，更停止了對我噓寒問暖，體?K關心。
雖然身邊依究不乏追求者，但心中卻有著一股難以抹滅的失落感。
奇怪？我不是巴不得他離開我嗎？
為什麼他不再纏人了，我反而覺得不舒坦？
也許，我是習慣了他的接送，一時還調適不過來吧？
看到他上課時老打瞌睡，這麼不長進也想追求我？
哼！我心中一氣之下，便決定了再也不理他了，除非他主動過來向我道歉。
很快地，學業結束了，大家也都畢業，各有所成了，而我呢？也交了我喜歡的男朋友，只是，和我所愛的人在一起，卻未必一定幸福的，口角、爭執在所難免，對方也未必願意遷就我。
每當這個時候，我都會想起了「他」，懷念「他」對我的好。
我想，當初「他」真是愛我很深很深的，只有自己談了戀愛，才能體會到當初「他」對我的一片真情吧！
過得好不好？有沒有女朋友了？
我想，當他女朋友應該是會很幸福的。
可是，一直都沒看到「他」出現，我有點沉不住氣了，就趨前詢問當時「他」最要好的同學小P。
小P神色黯淡地望了我一眼，說：「他要求我絕對不能告訴你的，不過，已經過了三年多了，我想，告訴你應該沒什麼關係了吧！」
我聽了更感好奇，急忙詢問起「他」的動向。

小P歎了口氣說：「他‧‧‧他早在三年前去世了‧‧‧」
「什麼！？」我聽了大感震驚，腦袋宛如五雷轟頂般：「怎‧‧‧怎麼會‧‧‧」
正當我神色恍惚，不太能接受這件事時，只聽小P接著又說：「三年多前，他突然兼了好幾個工作，日以繼夜地，把自己弄得簡直不成人形。問他什麼原因，他卻矢口不提。有一天，我突然看到他開了一輛轎車，他才很興奮地告訴我，他拼命賺錢，總算有能力買輛車子了，從此可以每天接送你上下班了‧‧‧」
我聽了以後，淚水早已不聽使喚地流了出來。
只聽小P又說：「他還不太會開車，為了盡快能夠搭載你，每天半夜就拼命地練車，也許‧‧‧也許是長久以來睡眠不足的關係吧！那天晚上，他車開著開著不自覺竟打起盹來了，與迎面而來的計程車相撞，送到醫院時已經奄奄一息了‧‧‧」

「臨終前，他還一再地請求我，無論如何，也不能告訴你這件事，他害怕要是讓你知道了，你會生氣的‧‧‧」
天啊！沒想到他在臨終之前，居然還在乎我的感受？
這個傻瓜，像我這種自私無情的女人，值得他為我這樣付出嗎？
這時候，我的淚水早已潰堤而出，心中充滿了無限的悔恨。
我的一句氣話，竟然就這樣毀了一個人，一個對我用情如此深厚的男人

如果時光能夠再倒流，我一定會毫不遲疑地選擇「他」，因為在這個世界上，我相信再也找不到一個願意如此待我的男人了。
但是遲了！一切都遲了！
留下來的，僅存著永遠的回憶和終生無法消弭的悔恨了‧‧‧
究竟是愛人比較幸福、還是被愛比較幸福呢？
這個問題，沒有一定的答案，就留待每個人自己去體悟了。

4 HOURS BREAK!!!

2009-06-04T14:16:00.002+08:00

My God... Need to wait 4 hours for next lesson....

Damn bore here... Can't play game at all... Just on msn ( check mail only, no MSN available), Facebook, Friendster & Blogspot...

I going to join Yoga society, is it a good idea?

Amzing Sun...

2009-06-02T09:49:00.002+08:00

Did you all see at the Sun early morning today?

Wow... Its Amazing guys... Dunno what happen today so many haze around here...

I think is haze, but the FM reporter say its not, it caused by the high temperate of Malaysia...

All answer find a google la, don't ask me...

The Sun is like... erm... Ham Tan Chiu Yan's eye (cantonese, Ultraman) ... Orange reddish with nice circular shape... Just like a ham tan we eat...

The shape of sun revealed clearly!!! I never seen a sun without black glasses before... Because I'm Vampirevil... hahaha...

2nd day of school... No new friend still... Sound so disappointed... But nevermind, I'm Playboy must be alone always... haha... At least I got few friend is here... But different class...

1st Day in Degree!!!

2009-06-01T13:23:00.002+08:00

Gosh... I'm damn bore in my campus now...

Need to wait 2 hours for next lesson... Not many friend here... All stranger...

With my "lansi" characteristic very hard to find a new friend, but if they come and know me then different case, I will be quite friendly LoL... Quite only... haha... Just Kidding...

Thursday more worse... have to wait 4 hours here like a "sohai" only can attend next class...

4 hours!!! What the Hack I can do over here... Play game? Or what what what? haha...

International Business class only have 10 students!!! Funny... haha...

Luckily Finance class have at least... erm... 2 class and 3rd class with 2 students for now...

2 students in a class... damn bore.. haha...

Badman Return Season II

2009-05-28T17:29:00.002+08:00

Badman Return 2nd season... Haha...

Sorry for didn't write blog for so long because I'm addicted to a game name as 天龙八部。。。

It was fun though and it's the 1st time I play online game because usually I don't play any of these game, afraid of addicted.. But no choice...

I keep play from morning at 10am until midnight of 2, 3 or 4am... Maintained about 2 weeks...

And today I'm just back from my degree orientation... Gosh... It damn damn damn boring...

I go for registration only but forced to join the talk or whatever from 8.30am until 4.15pm, I ran out actually, it haven't end yet...

Tomorrow force to attend for another orientation of PTPTN... sien...

我愛的人結婚了

2009-05-07T10:57:00.005+08:00

我就要和相处一年的女友结婚了，毫无疑问，我很高兴。唯一困擾我的是，我未來的小姨子，一個20歲的辣妹。

她喜歡穿緊身的低胸 T-Shirt 以及迷你短裙。

她經常在我的跟前有意無意的彎下腰，更要命的是在別的男人面前她從不這麼做。

直到那一天，我未來的小姨子 Call 我，讓我去看看請柬的準備情況。

當我到時，她家只有她一個人，迎接我的是她無盡幽怨的眼神說：

我愛的人結婚了，

新娘不是我，我現在唯一想做的即是在你結婚之前，把我獻給你。

她在樓梯上對我說：我在臥室等你，如果你決定了，就上樓來找我。

當她走到樓梯的盡頭，和她睡衣一起滑落灑向我的是她眼中的期待。

我呆立了一分鐘，然後做了我當時唯一能做的事：拉開大門，走向我的汽車。

門外，我未來的岳父大人濁淚橫流，給了我一個惡狠狠的擁抱：

Good Boy，我們家的測試你已經通過了，歡迎你加入到我們的大家庭。

這個故事告訴我們 ......... 保险套放在车上是对的！！哈哈。。。

Final Day of Foundation!!!

2009-05-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

Hooray!!! Final day of Foundation in UTAR LoL... So So Happy...Haven't reach to can fly to heaven level...

But Haiz... Still not enough time to finish all... damn rush at the last moment... Simply write anything I know only...

After exam we all go to have last meal of foundation at Ginger house... They say de... But they
keep wait in campus for damn long... Waste so many time there...

5pm only go to buy Pizza Hut and KFC... 3 large pizza and 2 tong of 15 pieces KFC for 21 person la...

Wait them until 5.50pm like that can't endure already then we start eating because I have to fetch my sister at school... You know la PJ area very jam de...

6.30pm only depart from my friend house to USJ 13... Damn late already... They all lo, want take picture with me then keep talking and talking... Talk quite alot of picture actually...

Then 7.30pm only get my sister... Damn late le... That's all for today...

"Badman Return" from Terengganu

2009-05-04T15:39:00.008+08:00

Just back from Terengganu yesterday... Damn Damn Damn tired...

Sit in car for 8hours for whole journey... My butt become flatter and pain le...

The purpose I go there just for Bitch (beach) but... We just went there for a very short moment just like you sit on the toilet bowl to poop...

We depart on Friday about 11am then reach Terengganu about 7pm!!! Gosh... 8hours!!! I can do many thing at the time...

When I reach there... OMG... So surprise, my aunt adopt damn lots of dogs in her house!!! 11 dogs man!!! They are not dog man but is dog... It just a way of expression... Luckily not 101 dogs, otherwise I will faint at the right moment...

1st day reach there, they all play mahjong again... Boring...

2nd day same thing mahjong until we have no time to "visit" beach over there... until night only we go there but so unlucky its raining heavily...

3rd day thought of go to beach early morning... Who knows about 10am only look for "Son & Bitch" (Sun & Beach), 11.30am then start the journey to go back hometown, not KL... The beach not as nice as I thought but better than KL side de la... all shit bitch (beach)...

Memory of Best Friends...

2009-04-29T21:27:00.004+08:00

I done my exam finally... But... is my 1st time never finish my paper... haiz...

My cost accounting ar... I put such lot of effort but what I get...

Don't care about it la... Put such lot of effort also no use... 1st time not enough time to finish my paper le...

Today, I suddenly thought of my 1st best friend... Lau Chun Xiang... Xian or Xiang forget already...

He was my best friend start from primary school until the end of primary school but until now I still regard him as my best friend in my heart... We study at the same elementary & primary school, same class for last 2 year of secondary school, same tuition place & teacher, stay in the same area, So surprise his house is direct behind of my house... This called as Fate...

I feel regret to treat him so badly after primary school, I didn't even dare to talk to him directly behind of my house thus always ask my sis to "deliver" my message... even before that...
I admit I'm shy and dunno how to express myself to others... I still remember I don't dare to talk to him after we set apart for our secondary study... Same reason again...

Sorry my 1st best friend for being so cruel... You are my ever best friend I had...

In my memory I was a weak guy when I'm kid, and he is the one who always protect me...
How to find this kind of friend... And sorry for all my friends if you been experienced this by me...

I'm a shy guy "if been a long time didn't see each other and someone I dunno, which stand for Stranger"... I will treat them very cool until we are quite close friend... But after being friend I will be a "eager" friend... haha... I will very passion to all my friends and joke around...

Im SHY SHY SHY... Argghhhhh........ I don't want this personality on me!!!
I write it in blog just to express my feeling and no mean to show someone for some purpose...
Just "innocently" express myself...

This message is too all my best friends in my life... There is quite a lot so not need to write it out lol... That is YOU... Don't look around and think other way anymore...

1st Exam Tomorrow...

2009-04-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

Argh... Got Exam tomorrow ar!!! So stress...

Final exam 1st paper kinda stress lol... Study for 1 week then 2 more days only exam... Sienz lo...

Total up is 9 days to wait for exam... Waste my precious time...

But I haven't get enough preparation... Just revise 3 times only... Really not enough...

Can't remember at all... Haiz... Why I got amnesia de... Sad LoL...

Read already then forget and forget...

Shen ar, Jiu Jiu Wo Ba, Yi Ba Nian Ji Le... Dunno the lyrics already...

Translation : (God ar, Help Me)

Prediction in My Dream??? Scary!!!

2009-04-27T15:50:00.004+08:00

It was a horrible and terrible dream in my life!!! I try to copy and paste from my memory as much as I can recall... Its truth, I never lie in blog...

I remember that 3 of us, Me, KaiKai & Des (my ex) when to somewhere to have meal together ( dunno is when is it, couldn't remember ) that time I keep playing and chatting with Des in car happily, usually it won't happen in real if KaiKai there... Dream is Dream... Dunno what happen KaiKai get angry and ask me go back my house and take the cable to KaiKai hostel with fiercely with depress, maybe of jealousy... ( dunno what cable, dream ma... who care ) After this no more Des appear, "shao san" already... ( cantonese which means byebye la if directly translate to english is "store mountain" better phrase is "back to mountain" gua... Not sure about these... )

After I reach home, I take the "cable" immediately and drive to his place directly... My place to KaiKai place need at least 20 - 30 mins to reach but surprise I use 10 mins to reach, which means I drive very fast like "the fast the furious" or "speedman"...

When I reach there, and give Kaikai the "cable" but KaiKai very angry don't care about me... Then I intend to drive back home after this... After few second, "BONG" a very loud crushing sound is heard by KaiKai... KaiKai run back to see what happen, who knows I'm involving with a very severe accident... KaiKai take me out from a severe crushed car and cry loudly with yelling "please call ambulance for me!!! Please!!! Faster!!!" in mandarin la... That time my whole body pierced by the glass of windshield, which looks very disgusting which pretty much of blood flowing from all my body and my mouth with crying eye... Then I realize I am dead at the moment...

Then I wake up with a shocked! That time feel like wanna cry because it seems very sad and disgusting... You are not me, that why you don't understand the feeling... Maybe this dream is to telling me to cherish the person that you be with now and vice versa...

Conclusion : Do cherish the one you love, he or she will gone 1 day without knowing the date...

Back From Hometown...

2009-04-26T21:57:00.003+08:00

Just back from hometown... So tired...

What have I done today? Good question...

Yesterday night reach Grandma house then take a sexy shower then touch my face big pimples who knows the stupid pimples "break" through my face... Fucking bad luck... Something white pops out like semen... So surprise that day is my cousin Birthday then have a barbecue together, it was so Fun... Keep let people "Zha"... Dull actually...

But I love the sky over there... Damn many stars... I like to watch stars LoL... It's full of mystery...

I try my mobile phone to capture the stars into my memory but... too bad I just see many "light dot" over there...

Afterward, we watch "Taiwan Real Ghost Story" & "Diamond Club"... Scary first then Funny... That's the only way to delete the horror memory...

Dunno what happen I can't sleep at night at all... Just closing eye there until around 6 or 7am only sleep... damn tired, plus today have to take family picture sure got a big black circle like pandaman... Maybe too care about my face don't dare to contact my face to the pillow and with wrong favorite sleeping position... Maybe gua... Haiz... My face ar...

After wake up, OMG, My Handsome Face got a lot PIMPLES!!! Damn Sad Lo!!! Every time go back hometown dunno why will grow stupid pimples...

About 8am, my dad wake me up... Damn tired lo, sleep at 6 or 7am then have to wake up already... Then take sleepy shower... ZzzzZ... Take sleepy breakfast...

11am go to take Family picture... Wish to use make-up to cover my temporary ugly face... But its available for lady only... Then ask them to edit in photoshop lo, what can I do... ( of course they will la, if we spend so much but photo is ugly 1 after take, who want to take these kind of photo again, then they where got income )... We ( Me & Cousins) keep take picture by my mobile phone LoL... Damn syok sendiri...

Then a lot of bullshit, don't want to talk about... Skip Skip Skip... until 5pm, we go to eat "ice kacang" nearby my grandma house, fucking full lo ( learn from Big Boobs : ShunYee ), because we take our lunch at 3pm.. 3pm le!!!

7pm come back from hometown... my dad drive very fast like "chuo hoi" lo ( initial D main character ) because all the way is same as the movie... To be exaggerate on all of this... haha...
It make me going to vomit, no mood to eat...

Then reach home... yeah... Then write blog LoL & chat with Kyle in Skype... Done!!!

PiMpleS!!!

2009-04-25T13:40:00.003+08:00

Arghh... Something disgusting pops up on my face!!! Hate pimples!!!

Very huge that kind... Make my face uglier... Sob Sob... My face ar!!!

Is time to take action... No matter use what "jin ka" way, I must destroy it, Sunday need to take family photo de le... My reputation and fame...

I use "blood to wash my sin" away... ( use tomato slice to wash my face) haha...

After that thought of take a "sperm mask"... ( egg white mask lol )... Haha...

But can't make it because my mom say need to go back Hell... ( hometown )...

Bore Bore Bore... No internet connection... No Online No Life...

That's for today... Sunday need to take family some more... Must be in very good condition...

Black Circle quite big also... All whose fault?!! Kyle & ShunYee... haha... Is my fault too, because willing to chat with them until so "early" until 1am or 2am...

CraZy StuDy WeeK!!!

2009-04-24T17:26:00.003+08:00

This whole week is sucks!!! Keep revise and revise for Final Exam of Foundation...

Everyday do the same thing non-stop for whole week... Show you all my schedule for the whole week...

(Around the time, not totally same la, I'm not nerd go and count the time then do the same thing...)

11.00am : Just wake up... Then brush teeth, wash face and pee...

11.20am : Take my breakfast and open notes to revise...

1.00pm : Finish 1 chapter of revise... 1 chapter!! Gosh... take too much of time... Hate Cost Accounting, consume me such lot of time... Then take my lunch...

2.00pm : Revise again... because rushing to on Skype and chat with someone... Is You LoL... Without hesitate is You! Don't Look at Left or Right!!!

3.00pm : Take shower... 3pm only take shower!!! Smelly!!! But no choice...

3.30pm : Done my sexy shower!! Haha... sound gross... Then revise again... You will know how boring is it...

4.20pm : Yeah, is time to on Skype and chat... Update some of my profile at the same time...

7.30pm : Just finish chat, is time to take my dinner...

8.00pm : Chat on Skype again and updating most of my profile...

8.30pm : Sign in MSN for old friend gossip... Chat with Kyle & ShunYee until 1am... Shun Yee la, say still early, don't let me go... sobsob...

1.00am or 2.ooam : Sleep like a Pig...

6.00am : Wake up awhile for pee... Not everyday same time... Haha...

Imagine how sucks is this life... Doing the same thing whole week... All cost accounting fault!!!

Hate cost accounting... Never like account... Hate Hate Hate!!!

100 Truths!!!

2009-04-23T23:46:00.008+08:00

100 Truths! After you've filled this out, tag some people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage→ Sky Juice

2. Last phone call → Kyle Housewife

3. Last text message→ Kyle Housewife

4. Last song you listened to→ Sugar By Flo Rida

5. Last time you cried → Just Now... Hurt by my family... Haiz...

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice → I don't date people, only people date me LoL.. Sound arrogant...

7. Been cheated on?--> I cheat people more than they cheat on Me... For Playboy only...

8. Kissed someone & regretted it? It was past but I won't regret for this time...

9. Lost someone special? Nop, never... Because I'm Badman... haha...

10. Been depressed? Sometimes, usually I won't because I'm Bad enough..

11. Been drunk? Half can counted as?

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Black

13. White

14. Blue

HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends → Yes, always...

16. Fallen out of love → Chee Sin...

17. Laughed until you cried → Almost... But not that exaggerate...

18. Met someone who changed you→ Kyle Housewife...

19. Found out who your true friends were→ Of course I do... Mostly are Girl... Haha...

20. Found out someone was talking about you→ Shun Yee!!! She is 1 of my True Friends...

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ Of course not... I'm loyalty & Not Promiscuous...

23. How many kids do you want to have→ I hate Kids!!! Annoying...

24. Do you have any pets → Yup... Jamie, Jordan(dead), MiMi, and fishes in aquarium...

25. Do you want to change your name→ Perhaps... My name sound dulll...

26. What did you do for your last birthday→ Just replying all my birthday greet and do nothing... No celebration... SobSob... =<

27. What time did you wake up today? About 11am...

28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Keep chatting with Kyle & Shun Yee In Skype...

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → Be a Billionaire...

30. Last time you saw your father→ 1 hour ago, he came in my room & see what am I doing... I won't do something naughty in room...

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Become more handsome and fit...

32. What are you listening to right now → How Do I Live By LeAnn Rimes...

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Nop... Never... Is a cat included?

34. What's getting on your nerves right now? Final Exam... Arghh... Hate Exam!!!

36. What's your real name →Foo Lun Chet

37. Relationship Status → In a monogamous Relationship...

38. Zodiac sign → Aquarius...

39. Male or female→ Obviously I'm Male LoL...

40. Elementary→ Eden Kindergarden...

41. Middle School → SJK (C) Khe Beng

42. High school → SMK USJ 13

43. Hair color → Pure Black...

44. Long or short → Guy shouldn't have Long hair because so ugly and girlish... Conclusion is Short...

45. Height → 171cm I think...

46. Do you have a crush on someone? I do but forget already...

47. What do you like about yourself ? A little Humorous... More to kinky side... Haha...

48. Piercings → Nop, I wish to have but my parents don't allow... Cool Man...

49. Tattoos → Chee Sin... Don't ask me to do such idiot stuff...

50. Righty or lefty → Lefty...

FIRSTS :

51. First surgery → Never and don't hope to have 1... Fear of pain...

52. First piercing → No No No...

53. First tattoo → Disgusting...

54. First best friend → Lau Chun Xian...

55. First sport you joined → Bed Exercise... Haha... Is Badminton actually...

56. First pet → Jamie, my lovely bitch...

57. First vacation→ Singapore... Told by My parents...

58. First concert → Erm, can't count as concert at all... Some event of AiFm at Genting Theatre...

59. First crush → Even I have I also couldn't remember...

60. First alcohol drink → Red Wine...

61. Eating → Carrot Porridge...

62. Drinking → Breast Milk gua...

63. I'm about to → Sleep but still on Skype with ShunYee & Kyle...

64. Listening to → In The End By Linkin Park...

65. Waiting for → To Sleep... To done all this bullshit 100 truths... Forced by Shun Yee... SobSob...

YOUR FUTURE :

66. Want kids? No! Hate it...

67. Want to get married? Erm, Finding Legalize country... Haha... Marriage is the graveyard of Love, is a trick for woman to bind a man...

68. Careers in mind? Pilot... Can fly over all countries...

69. Lips or eyes → Eyes

70. Hugs or kisses --> Do at the same time will have better performance...

71. Shorter or taller → Of course is Taller...

72. Older or Younger → I prefer someone Mature on Mentally and Physically...

73. Romantic or spontaneous → Same with ShunYee, both... More Surprise...

74. Nice stomach or nice arms → I like what the person are but not their appearance... Both maybe... Haha...

75. Tattoos or piercings→ Yucks, go away from me... Piercing still acceptable but only ear...

76. Sensitive or loud → Don't like both of it... But I like funny...

77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship... Both la diu... Don't make me mad, I will Kill...

78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Better not to, it will turn me down...

HAVE YOU EVER :

79. Kissed a stranger → Of course No, chee sin... Kiss for what... I'm not that promiscuous...

80. Drank hard liquor → Nop...

81. Lost glasses/contacts → My eyes is perfect... haha...

82. Sex on first date → Erm... Why Keep ask these embarrassing question... No comment on it!!!

83. Broken someone's heart → Always... haha.. Badman Habit...

84. Had your own heart broken → Maybe but it just maintain awhile...

85. Been arrested? Chee Sin... Wu Liao... Ask something meaningful...

86. Turned someone down → Yes, always I think... Especially I'm in a relationship but none of my business because I just care my love 1...

87. Cried when someone died → Never try to...

88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → Anyone... No transsexual...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself → Most of the times...

90. Miracles → It might happen but chance could be 0.1%...

91. Love at first sight → Yup, I do believe it... It might can maintain longer...

92. Heaven → Of course it exist but dunno where izit...

93. Santa Claus → Only For Stupid Kids...

94. Kissing on the first date? → Yes, for a badman like me can do anything...

95. Angels → Yes, I believe Angels do exist... Everyone does have a Guardian Angel with us...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yup, is You... You should know who are you LoL...

97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No, My heart can contain 1 person only...

98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?-> Nope, human is liar... I'm not Human... But I do lie for people good... No harm...

99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? My Lover, Money easy to get But Lover don't... Not easy to find someone you love them and they love u too...

100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Of course, what else I can post as? 100 Bullshits?

爱的宣言。。。

2009-04-23T17:42:00.006+08:00

All created by Myself... Maybe its written before but I just write what appear in my mind...

1.我们俩，就好像地球与生物。。。永远不能分开，一旦分开了什麽都变成没意义了。。。
想象一个没生物的地球是长什么样子的，它是多么的恐怖，没色彩，没生气。。。
没了彼此，就等于没了全世界。。。

2.遇上你，是上天给我最好的安排和礼物。。。我会好好珍惜这一份得到上天祝福的爱情去爱你。。。

3.遇上你，就好像一个装满了回忆的空壳，蓝天白云碧海，多么的美丽，光彩，有意义。。。

4.爱上你，是上天最美好的安排。。。
因此，上天会陪着我们一起渡过幸福与困难的日子并给于帮助与祝福。。。

5.爱上你，就好像一对在天空飞翔的爱鸟，无忧无虑的过着每一天，不理会世间只徘徊在二人世界，
惹人妒忌的幸福。。。

6.失去你，是我人生中最大的错误，因为我不懂得去珍惜你，去爱护你只带给你伤害。。。对不起。。

7.失去你，就好像从我肉体里勾出我的灵魂般痛苦，无法补偿的罪过。。。

8.当你要离开世间的那一刻，我会向上天恳求牺牲我自己的灵魂来延长你的性命，并要你忘记我
快快乐乐的为我活下去，我要你忘记我是因为不要你痛苦的活在这世上，
那么我做的一切也没有意义。。。

9.当你离开世间的那一刻，我会毫不考虑的杀死我自己并追随你的灵魂，
因为我不想你寂寞的一个人，只想陪你到永远。。。

10.会生气你，发你脾气是因为我在乎你，我爱你，我要你的关爱，你那让我温柔的爱。。。
如果我不爱你就不会理睬你，不在乎你的一切，不管你的死活。。。

Revive!!

2009-04-23T16:46:00.006+08:00

First day of writing blog because keep asking by lots of "annoying" humans...

I admit I'm not human being because I'm Vampirevil!! Sound childish... duh...

"Do you have blog? No... Why dont make 1? Lazy to write and dunno what to write...
You're out-dated dude..." This is what I being nagged LoL...

This forces me to start a blog and become 1 part of you all > > > Blogger!!!

Last week was my warmest day that I never had, stay in the place for a long period and keeptalking and some intimacy, it sound dull but you will understand after u been with your love 1...

Sumimasen, I have no story to tell today so I tell something just happened recently and meaningful to me...

Do you know why I choose 23rd April to "revive"... Because 4/23 in Cantonese is " sei yi sang"...

"Die Then Revive"or "Die Easy to Revive"... Just like a Legendary Fire Bird : Phoenix, the reviving bird burning herself with Fire... Keep revive and die permanently...

We, human must learn from these, don't because of 1 failure then don't dare to stand up again...

We must like grass at the meadow or Legendary Fire Bird, Phoenix...

The picture above is Me & My Best Friend, Kyle... In my dictionary, BF stand for Best Friend but not Boy Friend, while for GF stand for Good Friend but not Girl Friend...

Beside, I was a playboy but now is time to settle down... This is what I promise you... Haha...

Im serious no joke...